About Sarah:

Growing up I played with dolls to a late age, so I think I have a strong maternal instinct. I always wanted to have children. What I didn't know is that I had a deep-seated fear of marriage, stemming from my father's manic-depressive psychosis that began when I was five. When he came home from a mental hospital a second time, not the lively father I had known, but sad and depressed, I told my parents, "When I grow up, I'm going to have babies but no daddy." I always knew I had said that, but I didn't realize how much I meant it unconsciously and was living it out. I became a psychologist and in my own psychoanalysis this became clear. But I think having my son without marriage made it possible for me to finally risk marriage at age 42.

About Sarah’s story:

I think my story is about persistence. I knew it was very important to me to have my own child. but something kept getting in the way- a fear of marriage I didn't know I had. I kept turning down good opportunities to be married with the flimsiest of excuses. I finally realized I needed some therapy to find out why I was doing this. It took a long time, but I finally had the life I dreamed of having. Persistence and a heavy measure of God's grace.